I am in my mid-30's and starting to feel like I'm ticking. Is it because children aren't an option? Am I just seeing things in a new light? Is it because the ex is having kids even though neither of us "wanted" to go that route? Whatever it is, this has been on my mind for quite a while. In the past few months (some may call it a midlife crisis, others may say I took charge of my life), I "decided". Come spring of 2011 I will be working towards a child of my own.
I've taken the next step and started to contemplate what it would be like to raise a child on my own. Having a child truly 'alone' is impossible, so what are the options for a gal who has a heck of a time in the dating world? I've contemplated adoption, but I think that part of the innate draw is to go through the whole process. A random encounter? - too risky with too many future implications. Asking a male friend to assist? - how awkward is that and still fraught with future implications. So, that brings me to donors unknown to me.
Is this crazy to even consider? Will I change my mind? Regardless, this blog will document my actions towards eventuality and might make for something to share with someone- someday.