It's been more than a half a year since my last post and I remain without something new to say.
More and more people are joining my church, they too have 2, 3, 4, or like the couple this morning 6 little ones right there in front of me. Others have had their first or second one in the past so many months. I think one of the toughest things to swallow is the rather heavy woman there, I mean large enough that she can hardly walk and carry the baby. I am not stating this to mock her size, but rather to marvel. There I was trying and being told that because I'm a bit heavy it could make it harder for me to get pregnant. Seriously? How are these women doing it?
I have a yearly appointment coming up next month, so I suppose I need to figure out if I aim to try again this year (still being mindful of the forthcoming vacations). I start to think I should stop the pills and get myself ready and then I think more and realize I'm still here in the same area, which means the timing will always be near impossible.
In the past year I've made feeble attempts to reach out to potential adoption places and have heard nothing back. I know, I know, if I were serious I'd call, but I don't feel confident. I wish I could just find the right guy and do this the old fashioned way, things would be a great deal easier. But of course, the far and few options there all seem to already have their kids.