Sunday, June 23, 2013

What Progress?

Five months later and I am still asking myself the very same questions.  I am finally back to a point where work is a little more stable, so that factor is lessened.  The quest for Mr. Right continues to be a very short story.  I've also planned vacations out to the end of 2014, which seems ridiculous, but it is another thing that would need handled if my child-status changed.

Since my last post I attended a work event that was family oriented.  I have to say how shocking it is that it seems like not only has everyone there reproduced, but they've done so 3, 4, or 5 times.  It's tough to swallow sometimes.

Sunday, January 20, 2013

Watching time passing...

Nothing much to say as of late.  I remain on birth control, enjoying the shorter, less painful, and more predictable periods, but a bit pensive as I watch more time tick by.

In the mean time I've started eyeballing adoption websites again.  I just can't imagine those challenges in addition to conceding that I would not have someone that was _of_ me.  Now that's not what is stopping me, I know many kids out there need someone and yes, I'd love them and do the best I could for them.  I know too that adopting doesn't prevent me from finding Mr. Right and having one of my own either.

Adoption for me would probably not mean a baby.  As a single woman, I know some places would still shy away from me.  Heck, I look at profiles of older kids who state how they'd love to have a mom and dad and even siblings and realize how short I would fall of their expectations as well.

I guess right now I am just circling and trying to figure out what to do.  I know that lack of action doesn't slow down the clock.  What to do?