Bleeding Again

I started to bleed yesterday. Chances of it being implantation bleeding? Or is my period starting 6 days despite my ovulation tests popping along the timeline (granted earlier couple of days) according to the MyMonthlyCycles calendar. I think the closest to a baby I'm getting is going to be the overabundance of kids that were at the baby shower this past Saturday or in the dream I had last night of holding a baby (while driving, but hey, it was a dream).

At the mercy of this small town

I'm pretty much getting rooked over because I'm in a small town, that's what I think. I did call the doctor's office again, and risked getting another call back from the rather rude lady. Instead the doctor called me back and tried to say that she couldn't call them anyhow because it would be a HIPAA violation. So I get to wait and see if whatever they actually put into the mailed letter (how is that not a HIPAA violation) is sufficient. I called Fairfax, and providing it contains the appropriate information the letter will be acceptable to them. Somehow, I doubt it.

Frankly, this does put a nail in the coffin for my progress. If the attempt with two next month doesn't work... and/or there is concern with that sperm too, I've got to call it quits instead of pissing money away on lackluster sperm mixed with a doctor's office that doesn't live up to comparison of others level of service.

Frustration!

What a royal pain in the rear. On Friday I called and left a message (as is the standard frustration) for my doctor's office noting that Fairfax requires the office or doctor to call a specific number in order to communicate with them if something is felt to not be right with the specimen. When I went to leave I had a voice mail saying a letter was typed up for me and they asked if I were picking it up.

This morning before I could call another staff member called and seemed more than agreeable to talk with the doctor (she was in surgery all day today) and to have someone there call tomorrow. Great! Later in the day the mean voiced lady who left the message called back and asked me again if I was going to pick up the letter. Despite me pointing out that a number needed to be called and that I had spoken with someone else she rather forcefully noted that all that is required is a letter and she reiterated the question. Great. (We need a punctuation mark for the antithesis of an exclaimation mark.) So, not sure what is up.

Attempt 2, one day early

I was keeping an eye on the tracking information and my fingers crossed this morning. Imagine my delight when I saw at 9:51am that the specimen was delivered! I called and was able to get shifted to a 11am appointment this morning.

In my reading I've found various answers on timing. Most of what I saw says about 24-48 hours after the LH surge, which concurs with what my doctor's office says, but that's just the release of the egg. From there I've read you've got 12-24 hours before it is lost. Now given that my first check, on Tuesday evening read positive, as did my test Wednesday afternoon, I'd THINK that means 11am today was about the 48 hour mark or a little over. You'd think that would be the perfect time frame. I guess we'll see if/when my period comes - which I suspect will be early again this month.

Now, all sounded well, but - to my surprise - my doctor was actually there and available this morning! Around noon I'm actually in there and she comes in saying "we need to talk". She then proceeded to say she had some in a slide and there isn't much moving in there. Then she asks where I got the samples from.

Yes, all of my specimens were saying 35%-ish for motility and around 10mil counts. 35% clearly, the most rudimentary of math, isn't all of them swimming like crazy... but is that that bad as to have the doctor say that? I don't what to think exactly, but it is disheartening. I guess it only takes one.

Feeling is knowing

When you start to pay more attention to your body, you should listen to it. Yesterday I felt some slight crampy-ness and I knew darn well it is my body trying to ovulate. This morning I forgot to use a test, but took one this afternoon and yep - ovulation positive. Tuesday! and I'm scheduled for Friday. Not good. Why was everything "on time" last month when I wasn't giving it a go. Place an order for sperm delivery and boom - the body freaks. Clearly I need to order to have the stuff here earlier in the week and then put off the appointments if need be.

Next order placed

This morning I placed the second order, once again I will be trying 2976. I figure next month I'll try both samples of 4102. From there... I dunno what to think/do, but I'll play it by ear. That said, the next attempt is scheduled for May 20th.

I've also been thinking, why does it seem so socially unacceptable to approach someone that I'd consider to be a rather perfect specimen and say, look, I'll give you $500 a sample (instead of going through a middle man) and then using that for artificial insemination? Ok, maybe what I really mean is offering them one of their jerseys for each sample, but you know what I mean.

Serious Pain

In the past so many months, my period has become rather unpleasant, filled with at least two days of cramps that are worse than I've ever experienced. I can't sleep them off, midol or tylenol don't touch them, and trying to walk them off doesn't help either.

I truly wish I could be on birth control right now.

Shifting back into the mentality

Well my period started today, which is as predicted thanks to last month's body fail. That means this month will be a challenge as I'll be ovulating on the weekend again. Perhaps what I'll do is have two samples come, one for Friday and one for Monday and see how it goes. Admittedly, all of this hasn't been at the forefront of my mind lately, but that's probably a good thing.

Tomorrow is Mother's day. It hasn't escaped me that if all goes according to plan next year I could be celebrating it.