Nothing much to say as of late. I remain on birth control, enjoying the shorter, less painful, and more predictable periods, but a bit pensive as I watch more time tick by.
In the mean time I've started eyeballing adoption websites again. I just can't imagine those challenges in addition to conceding that I would not have someone that was _of_ me. Now that's not what is stopping me, I know many kids out there need someone and yes, I'd love them and do the best I could for them. I know too that adopting doesn't prevent me from finding Mr. Right and having one of my own either.
Adoption for me would probably not mean a baby. As a single woman, I know some places would still shy away from me. Heck, I look at profiles of older kids who state how they'd love to have a mom and dad and even siblings and realize how short I would fall of their expectations as well.
I guess right now I am just circling and trying to figure out what to do. I know that lack of action doesn't slow down the clock. What to do?